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This is written in memory of my older brother, Jason.
Even though we're not blood related but everyone knows we're no different from real siblings.
Couple days ago i received a call from jason's aunt in sydney.
I was informed that jason has died in a terrible car accident, due to drink driving.
I always say how stupid and silly people are to drink and drive,
yet never expected my own brother to die this way.
The news came as very shocking to me,
because i haven heard from you all along for a few years and this is the news i get.
Jase,
I still remember i've known you since i was 6 years plus, so counting now it's been 15 years?
It's really been a long time now isnt it?
I remember you came to watch my dance performance in my final year of kindergarden,
bumped into you backstage and thats how we got to know each other.
Both you and me grew up being the only child in the family,
and hence we both were very close and treated each other like real siblings.
You've always kept me company, rain or shine whenever i needed you.
no matter how busy or how important your stuffs are,
how small or big my matters are,
just a call from me and you'll always be here.
When we both were finally grown up,
we began to know more about each other and understand more issues.
well basically only you understand me the best even though i dont have to say anything.
and when everyone thought we'd end up together,
we proved that we can stay as just brother and sister.
As i'm writing this to you,
lots of flashbacks came to me about stuffs you did for me.
I guess i was kind of influenced by you because you were so great.
always topped first in sportsmeet and your cca,
and so i even followed you and joined many cca in my school and sportsmeet,
though i didnt topped all first but i guess it was ok.
All along in my eyes,
you are good in well almost everything, just except you cant dance remember?
other than that you are really good in music, sports, studies and a good brother.
You may not realise but you've always been my role model.
Being the girl who knows lots of sports and music now is all influenced by you.
I am not as good as you in studies but i did pretty ok too, though i may try to fulfil studying medical in future.
Jase, do not worry about me anymore.
I'm already grown up and not the little girl you knew 15 years ago.
even though its our loss that you're gone but things you did and words you said will always be remembered.
I know how much you cant put down and let go of me,
but dont worry really.
I will take care of myself and finish whatever you left undone.
I know how much effort you put in everything you do, it wont go to waste i promise.
And when i am not so tied up in singapore,
i promise i'll head to sydney to settle stuffs for you and visit you and godpa.
and dont worry,
your aunt says godma is staying strong and i will call her when i can.
My only regret is not being able to see you last and be at your funeral.
Jase, i hope you're doing well in heaven and we all misses you alot.
You'll always be remembered and missed.
Rest In Peace Jason.
♥♥♥
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